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Loki. Of course he's sticking his greasy head into this business. He knows more than Natasha would like but given how Thor's lost nearly everyone including his own brother in this catastrophe she can't exactly blame the god for leaning on this one. Hell, she herself has talked to Loki about the subject before.

It still stings to have intel leaked. Who knows who else he's told. Even though it's working out in her favor now. Saving her the time it'd take to try and explain all of it.

"You've got the wrong idea. You were the last resort. The loophole I'd found in the whims of equally terrifying options imposed by things I can't comprehend the power of." It's a bit difficult to put herself back into the mindset she'd had Before the Snap. It feels like a lifetime ago. But Natasha tries, because Blaze and Ghost are owed an honest answer.

"She came to me in the dead of night. I thought it was Loki, at first. I left the torches to investigate and she gave me her warnings. Her thinly veiled threats. That everyone was in danger of dying if Reynard wasn't appeased. Things had been getting so bad. People were already dying from hunger and cold. I couldn't afford not to take it seriously."

The spy shakes her head slightly before leaning against one of crumbling brick walls surrounding the windmill. Her posture is relaxed enough but her expression is anything but. It's a coiled nest of emotion even after all this time.

"I couldn't kill anyone. That's not...I don't do that anymore. No one that doesn't more than deserve it. I spent weeks looking for a way out. Drawing up contingency plans. And all the while things kept getting worse. By the time we went on the expedition, all I'd thought of was you clearing the minefield. How no one knew you couldn't die. How you and Reynard were well known antagonists to each other. I could give Reynard what he wanted without risking anyone."

She drops her gaze then.

"Or so I thought. Everything else...I didn't plan it much. I'm good at this kind of thing. I saw an opportunity and knew he was close by. I took it." Her shoulders tremble ever so slightly. "I thought you'd be back at my side within an hour, asking me what the hell had gotten into me."